CHAPTER 45 (part 1)

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we finally arrived, the place was so peaceful.

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i was silent for a while, the hard part's waiting for the food lol.

that's when fahad broke the silence:

fahad: nayfa, 

tra our parents galu inaa we'll decided our wedding day.

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fahad: nayfa bsm allah 3lek shfeek?

nayfa: hmm?

fahad: ana a7aki meen 9arlii sa3a?

-the smile was the best part-

nayfa: haha wallah sorry ma sm3t bss ma tt5ayal gd esh i'm hungry

fahad: 7seet

the food finally arrived, now i'm back.. 

yes world?

nayfa: umm ee fahad wsh knt tgul?

fahad: mtaa wdk ykun our wedding day, mabi a9'3'6 3leek l2ana galu it's our choice.

nayfa: -waves of thoughts dazzled and stormed my vision-

it's like i always wanted this day, my wedding.

it feels so good to simply say the word, knowing that i'll be his forever.

But, yet i still have this weird feeling..

indicating that i'm still not sure, not ready.

(afraid), a word that sums it all.

at this time, all i wanted is a map that would lead my heart to where i need to be.

now or later, i knew this day will come.. and i want that day so bad.

it's just all way too confusing.

fahad: -a disappointed face-

sorry i didn't mean to bother you, kmlee aklk.

nayfa: bss tra-

fahad: i understand, 3n e4nik 

God how i hated myself! 

i felt sorry for him it was like his face was all cheered up and full of light, he surely expected a better answer..

m7d y7s bl76'atna ella felwa, gf6a lab3d drja!

felwa: -coming to fahad's chair-

nayfa: hlaa

felwa: stop it with that fake smile, tra a3rfk akthr mn nfsee la tg3deen t5rb6een 3lay fahma?

nayfa: mafeeni shy wall-

felwa: what just happened?

nayfa: 3'9b y9eer shy y3ni?

ra7 el7mam -allah ykrmkum-

felwa: w how come he just called telling us that he's in the car?

nayfa: uffff felwa please 5ala9!!

felwa: ru7ee la y3nii yjls l7ala tra lssa ma ja elorder m6wleen

nayfa: i slammed the chair back and ran to the exit.

can this day get any dramatic?

i felt way too confused, i needed someone to talk to..

the whole process was way too scary!

preparations, honeymoon, leaving friends, getting back to school..

there was a bench right in front of the clear window..

it was amazing, i needed a quiet place.. not to mention the weather it was kind of chilly but that was ok.

me: aish nfham kl shy?? 'o'

fahad: ya nayfa ana a7bk mnzman!!

me: matst7i? w tgoulha gdam o5ouy??

fahad: ana l2ni a7bk ma jeet gltlk r7t glt ll a5ouk w huwa gally byt9rf bs b3d elyoum ya nayfa ana ma gdrt!! magdr 5la9 ana a7bkk!! 

me:fahad ana ma3rf aish agoul?? bs ana ma a7b hathi el7rkat w el laf wl dawaran!! 7ta law a5ouy y3rf w mwafg ana ma ar9'aha 3la nafsi

fahad: ya nayfa ama a7bk marra lw knt al3b ma kan r7t glt ll a5ouk!! w tra 7ta ana ma ar9'aha 3laik..

aziz: 3ash elwalhan!

i giggled

fahad: kl zag tra mu fa9'eelk ent:),, w aish y9'7kk??

me:umm la wla shy

fahad: 6yb ya nayfa ana tawni agoulk ana a7bk aish aswi?? w la tgoulili ena ma t7beeni twni sam3k b e4ni!!

i was so shy so i said: la wsh da3wa a7bk ent zy a5oy !! *trying to bug him*

fahad: 9dgtk!! ana ak4b 3youn w a4ani w a9dgk!!

CUTE MUCH??

aziz: 3ash 3ash mn 7ab!!

is it hot in here??

memories hit me, i giggled at the thought..
how i miss those days, they were amazing.


aziz's slap and the laughs brought me back to reality..


aziz: laa laa elbnt est5ft!

fahdah: o77 kl 4aa jalsa hena

felwa: ma bga makan ma lfena

faisal: swaleef w desserts w inty hena 6ul 4al wgt!

dana: bsm allah, akaltuu elbnt y3nii elwa7d ma ya54la jalsa tafkeeriya
-side hugging me-

i just love this creature.

lama: emshuu bs yallah nerja3 elsayara fahad m39bb

felwa looked at me with a sad expression and made her way to the car.
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it was a long way to the camping store, everyone was laughing and talking..
all i did was rest my head on fahdah's shoulder and stared at the window.

fahdah: laa yfutkum eli 3ndii -pointing at me-
ygulk knha b3aza

dana: 9dgg nayfa m6'aygk shy?

aziz: laa y3'rkum e5ti w a3rfha akeed feeha elnom

nayfa: haha la wallah
-faking a smile was pretty hard-

i wanted to avoid fahad's stares.


dana: let's enjoy our time, meen 3nda songs?

felwa: i'll play the songs -as she connected the wire-

تعال أبيك تعيش عمري معايا

ودي اعوض اجمل العمر وياك

تعال نكتب في المحبه روايه

اسمك وباسمي

وأسمها قلبي يهواك

انا هويتك عشقي ماهو حكايه

تنقال في هذا وتنقال في ذاك

جيت وتركت الناس كلها ورايا

شلتك هنا في القلب

والعالم هنااك

كلما اشوفك شفت في الحسن آيه

ويطل لي وجه البدر من محياك

وامسك امان الحب واعزف هوايا

وانت تزيح الليل

من كل شبااك

يا ملهمي في الحب لا تعيش تايه

اطلب دفى عمري وانا اقول لك جااك

كمل معي باقي فصول الروايه

وانا بكمل فرحة العمر ويااك..

lama: mn jdk felwa? wsh 4al nkad nbee shy y7mss

felwa: please marra wdii asma3ha bs this w b3den you can choose whatever..
-i felt her staring at me with a smile-

oh. felwa. 

this song described exactly how we both felt!
a tear of confusion dropped as i turned my face to the other side.



fahdah: nayfa yallah w9lna 

i hopped down the car, i really wanted a walk..

aziz: btjeen?

nayfa: laa wdee amshee

fahad: bss ma kna bar-
umm yallah nd5l

dana: nayfa t3alii wsh yg3dk hena

nayfa: wdii amshee shwy

dana: 3laa ra7tk
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walking was the best way to escape my thoughts, until the vibration of my phone interrupted.

(whatsapp)

Fahad:
nayfa 7beebti ed5li brd 3lek la tmr6'een!

a smile was plastered on my face.

Fahad:
 it's aziz, tbeen trj3een l2ana fahad byrj3?

not for long, i guess.


we met infront of the door, without a single word.
after a full 20 mins of silence, we finally reached the apartment.

i turned around, waiting for his 
"no hug?"

"thank you", was all i said.



i did my night routine, slipped in my favorite night shorts and tucked myself to sleep.











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