CHAPTER 47

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ru7ii w dnytii:

lol mtt 3la shklk eyom! 7beebti la 3ad tfshleeni gdam elnas, mtw83a kl yom b6l3 m3ak?

maa t6fsheen? el3'eera 4ab7tkk shklaha;)

it's not fahad, i know it..

afhmaa gbl ma 7ta ytklm, ha4a mu huu ana adrii.

-i sobbed and cried my heart out-

empty, i felt.

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felwa: nayfaaa shfeek!

nayfa: felwa e6l3ii barra 5ala9 mabii ashuf a7d

felwa: fhmeeni 6yb -trying to pull my phone-

nayfa: inty ma tfhmeen? give me a break please 

-fahdah stood still, 3la gdd ilee kan feeni i laughed inside about the way she stared-

fahdah: nayfaa w ana tbeeni? 9a7?

nayfa: bnaat 9dg ma asthbl, i need a break.

it was the time that i didn't even know what to do or what to think of, it's like a wall is pushing back all the reality and keeping me there. confused.

cause i know that this isn't him, he was never harsh.

i laid on my bed, trying to accept reality and what's happening.

it's your fault.

you don't deserve the best.

burn.

it's gone.

no more late night hugs.

no more good morning beautiful.

no more roof top nights.

no more, and no more..

why is this happening to me?

aziz and dana's knock snapped me back.

aziz: noufi nd5l?

nayfa: umm l76'a dgeega 

i tried to wipe my smudged mascara, puffy eyes.

aziz: feek shy?

nayfa: laa abd, t3aluu

aziz: about the camp night, ll2sf mara7 ngdr.. glt tru7een entii w fahad w elbanat m3 faisal?

nayfa: la la mala da3ii, b3d el,honeymoon enshallah

dana: -she stared at me like i know something's wrong-

aziz: 6yb shufee we'll be  gone for two weeks, ehtmii bnfsk ok?<3

dana: w keep your phone with you, 3lgee mali da5al abeek tsa3deeni w ana a5tar kl shy okay?

nayfa: okay -i was so happy for them, happy tears-

dana: hug?

nayfa: bwgtahaa

aziz: ad5l m3kum 3adii?

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we talked for ten minutes..

aziz: yallah t9b7een 3laa 5er yaa a7la nayfa

nayfa: wsh 3ndkk?

t3wdna 3lakalam el7lu haa?

aziz: kefii e5tii w bdl3haa

nayfa: yarab thbtt.

dana: i love you, w e4a feek shy gulii i don't want to pressure you
3gbaalk!
wake up early 3ashan n6l3


nayfa: enshallah

3gbaalk
*flashback*

g3dna nmshi w wdani a wedding dress shop!! mafee designer mafee!! elie saab, vera wang, marchesa!! 9dg kl a7d!! uff a7baa:(

fahad: haa shraykk??

nayfa: marra a7bk wallah!!

fahad: t3alli ntfrj w dwrii tra ana m7a ant9'r zyada awl ma tt5rji bntzwj!!

nayfa: etha rbii a7yana!!

fahad: ee inshallah, aahhh bs mta yjee hal youm bs!!

nayfa: greeb inshallah, el ayam trk9'!! yallah 5lna nshouf !!

fahad: yallah 

we kept on searching w ktha w lgeena km mn fstan marra 7lween 

i walked out with my hands covering my face

fahad: 7md ella wlshkr wsh feek?

nayfa: yfashel taraa

does it look good?

he held my hands and i twirled around..

fahad: umm ee marra 7luu bs ana ma abeek t6l3een ellaa w entii a54a a7san shy men hena yallah let's try some more<3

and i kept on trying more dresses:

bs ana 3jbni akthr shy the last one 7g vera wang!! 

fahad: stooop -

with his mouth wide opened-

nayfa: hww fahad wsh feek 5wftnii

fahad: i said don't move

nayfa: bss f-

fahad: stay still for 2 mins pleaaase

he stared at me like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time

it was awkward and my face was as red as a tomato

nayfa: can i move now?, fahad tara wallah y9'a7ik ke4a ana wagfa w ent tna9'r

fahad: dgeega n9aawer

we started taking those crazy photos, i admit i had so much fun trying wedding dresses out!

i changed to what i was wearing

fahad: marra 7lween t9dgeen? bs wallah by9eerou a7la 3laik enti..

nayfa: ee wallah ma tw83t blagi ktheer ashya2 7lwa, shukran:$ 

fahad: ma glt ella el9dg!!

i can't take it anymore, it's so hard to deal with a day without him.

but what hurts is, does he even care?

nayfa: felwaaaaaaaa

felwa: a39abk, haa

nayfa: t3alii

felwa 5ala9 magdr, lesh ga3d yswee feeni ke4a?

amana ana 3'l6t? 

swet shy?

wlaa ma astahla?

felwa la tguleen mshakl w mdrii esh, ana wsh 4nbii?

sahla t6l3een w tlgen 56eebk my his childhood friend w tarkk wla 7ata fkr ys2l w 9ar ma yslm b3d ma 7ssk enkk kl shy belnsba lhh?

-as i sobbed-

muu 93ba shwy? 

wla ana 7sasa bzyada?

fhmeeni felwa fhmeeeni!!!

her shoulder meant alot, i needed it.

she couldn't even answer, cause it's unbelievable how things changed. to the worst.

felwa: nayfa madri shgulk 9ara7a

nayfa: -sigh-

felwa: how about you text him?

ee nayfa mafeeha shy, show him that you care. 

ymknn kan 7ass enk u don't?

nayfa: ttw83en?

6yb help me esh aktb?

ahlan fahad, the past days have been so hard. ymkn int ma 7set bss ya let lw tfhmnii bdal ha4ii el7rkat 9dg magdr ast7ml, fhmnii!!

a fast reply it was.

3'areeba mn mta you start the text? 

felwa!! you're right shufee esh rdd.. ttw83en 3ashan ke4a?

it was like a huge ball of hope that hit me so hard.

felwa: told you!

nayfa: 6yb kef ard:(

felwa: -takes my phone and starts typing-

agdr ashufik?

why not?

hyde park?

enshallah, ten mins and i'll be there.

i was way too happy!!

nayfa: help me choose an outfit

felwa: yamasr3 mashallah, shftee glt lk huu b3d y7awl ythgl

nayfa: tara btjeen m3ee

i changed to this as fast i can since it wa pretty chilly outside, and i let down my hair into a side braid.

felwa: let's go

kwaiss fahdah nayma

nayfa: ya5ii mdrii kef entii mst7mltnii

i know i was too harsh today!

felwa: nayfa ma bena, i understand.

w tlumuni feeha? she's like my problems solver.

after 20 mins of walking.

felwa: yallah text him

nayfa: la bnt6'ra huu yes2al

felwa: bdena? it won't work out this way.

nayfa: eff

hello i'm there, wen alageek?

right infront of the icecream stand, on the bench..

can't wait to see you! i miss that beautiful face.

felwa: shufeee esh ktbb!

7aram 6'lmnaa

nayfa: i can't belive he's back to normal

there he is, on the bench.

with leena.

felwa looked at me disappointedly.

felwa: it's okay, go!!

i'll be right here

nayfa: bss e4aa hee m3aa wsh ybee feeni

felwa: nwef y3ni 6agtna kl 4a elmshwar 3la ke4a.

goo!

i made my way to the bench, my heart pounding my chest that i felt it beating everywhere.

leena: ohh nayfa, fahad shuf wsh hal 9dfa el7elwa.

-her death stares creeped me out-

fahad: oh hlaa

-without even looking at me-

leena 3ndk classes bukra?

leena: ee

fahad: ajal yallah nrj3 3ashan tnameen

leena: hww fahad wshd3wa agdr arj3, fr9aa ejls m3 nayfa!!

fahad: nayfa m3ha felwa, bss entii ma tgdreen trj3een l7alk b4al wgtt.

leena: 3la ra7tkk, yallah mshena

guess what? as simple as that.

not even words can describe how pitiful he's becoming.

hate can sometimes overcome love, by time..

but it was harder for me cause a wall keeps pushing those disappointments, a voice inside me is willing to keep me positive cause i know this is not him.

it's his body i see, but never his angelic soul.

well, you can now call me a weirdo.

i laughed my heart out.

felwa: nayfaa, bsm allah shfeek nayfa stop.

nayfa: t9dgeen, ana lesh marra l9ga?

akeed ma ybeeni, i'm not good enough.

9dg why would he want to be with someone like me bel3aks a7snla leena mashallah marra a7sn.

9a7 ya felwa?

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FELWA'S POV:

ana galbi 6ar, t9rfatha muu 6bee3iya.

t9'7k w t7ki m3 nfsha elii 9dg 5ayfa 3leha.

i took her back home, and made sure she's asleep.

i took her phone trying to call fahad, but he didn't answer.

thoughts filled me, elii 9dg nayfa ma tstahl elli y9eer laha.

mu 6bee3i kef 9ar y3amlha!

i tried to call him with my phone, and he finally answered.

fahad: samii felwa b3'eti shy?

felwa: fahad, abeek tsm3nii ll,a5r 3ashan elli benk w benha w a5uha..

7ram 3lek intt ma t7s?

tara muu sahla a7d yt3'yr 3lek b3d ma kan kl shy belnesba lk, laa w mu ayy a7d 56eebha!

wallah e4a 9araha shy btkun entt elsbb w tndam len a5r l76'a elbnt muu 6bee3-

fahad: kmlii len ma tben, t7zneeni entii w eyaha

felwa: intt mn jdk ha4a rdk?

fahad: w ana elli 8rrt ha4a kella bdun sbb?

felwa: shlon y3nii?

fahad: nayfa k4ba.

felwa: est77 3laa wjhkkk!!

fahad: ee, ana len el7en muu m9dg.. m3ztha nfs ma hee bs fee sbb lkl ha4a w atmna ennaa m7d ytd5l

felwa: laa e4a jt 3laa ha4i btd5l! lmeen t7kii lbnt? la5uhaa ile ray7 yjhz l3rsa? wla l9a7btha ilee msh3'ula m3 elwedding planner? wla omha ilee mahi 3arfa mn wen tbdii? wla o5tha ilee nu9 elwgt bilcamp? fahdah mu ke4a no3haa tklm y3nii lmeen tbeha t7kii?

ke4a btstmroun? kl wa7d ythgl 3l thanii 3la shy mala sbb!!!

fahad: laa fee sbbb ya felwa fee w ana ella youmik ha4a mnn sm3tt-

felwa: sm33t 3nha shy? 9a7? 6yb 9dgt b4el suhoula?

fahad: la ya felwa e4nii ma 9dgt, bss ana shft b3younii shft w ya letnii maa shft

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i hope it wasn't that short, and i'm sorry for the cliffhanger!

comment what you think<3