CHAPTER 51

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we both stared at other in confusion.

i took the phone and waited for a voice that would explain it all..

sultan, lesh rdet i switched numbers. 

i heard leena say, was that from the phone?i turned around to find her there.

i now know the trick did you?

i stared back at fahad, with my tongue feeling heavy.. not even a word.

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can people be that selfish!

fahad: 
nayfa please, fhmeenii sh9ayr

nayfa:
 fahad b3d esh? lmaa tjii w tlageeni 9dfa fkrt ts2lni?
b3d ha4aa kella grrt? ana ilee afhmk wla entt?

maa fkrt ts2l nfsk lesh at3'yr 3leha?
maa fkrt ts2lnii nayfa mmkn aklmk bmw9'u3?
maa fkrt tgul lesh ma at2kd? 
maa 7set bsh3uuri 9a7?

3ashan ke4a muu hamk. fahad 3la gd ma abee yrja3 kl shy zy awal bnfss elwgt i want us to separate our ways i'm sorry..

fahad:
 nayfaa l76'a!!!


nayfa:
 maa abii atsara3 w agul ashya2 bddun ma a7ss bnfsii, i said give me time w in either ways i'll call..
97 wlaa la? this is way too harsh bss muu b2eedi.


fahad: nayfa mmkn ntfaham?

nayfa: 
this is too late

-it was all nonsense, i tried to walk as fast as i can to search for felwa maa 9art-

it was like i walked away when i really wanted to stay, words can really deceive.. i just wish we could get back to what we were before, but i didn't want him to take it easy..
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fahad: nayfaa, anaa 7mar w 3'l6t t9ereen zyii?

-i turned to face him-

nayfa: -sigh-

fahad: rdii 3ly -as he lifted my chin-

nayfa: fahad, please.
i planned that after all this is a happy married life, all this wasn't for fun. i trusted you..
 i found my happiness in you but it doesn't look like it's gonna last..
i'll be honest and say that we aren't capable of solving our own problems and i don't want to risk my future.

fahad: nayfa, i just couldn't bear hearing what i saw and what i heard, ma fkrt ajii as2lk l2ni 5ft ykuun 9dgg w maa 3rft wsh by9eer feeni!!

nayfa: see, you didn't bother to ask, lesh kella t76 f,balk negative thoughts?

fahad: nayfa muu mhm, i need you now..
i missed every single thing about you, knt kl ma ajee anam at5ylna maa 3'btii 3n balii wla l79'a..
madri kef agulkk gd esh ana karh nfsii, 9dg muu wjh ykun 3ndi a7d mthlk. knt a5af aktb lk w an9dm men alrd mhma kan wdee at6mn w knt kl youm awgf gdam your apartment len ma ashuf you room lights closed, w some days i stay infront of the door waiting for rose w as2lhaa 3nk w arja3. 

nayfa: fahad y3nii ent trta7? 6yb w ana? kl ma rslt text an9dm mn rdd leena, those lights you waited for to close? kntt ma askrha ella w ana ray7a feeha..
muu 3ashan elli 9ar, simply l2nii ma tw83t b4ee elsuhoola elnas tt3'yr.

fahad ana t3bt, w maska lsani marra l2anna ma wdii agul shy w andm b3deen, just give me some time.


i just couldn't take this anymore, mixed emotions danced inside me. i kept on looking for felwa.

fahad: umm nayfa..

nayfa: fahad please 5ala9

fahad: traa bs knt bgulk enna ana already m7aki felwa, w trahii rj3t elbet

nayfa: felwwaaaa and stupid phone calls!!!!!!!

fahad: e9brii mafii rj3a l7aalk

nayfa: -sigh-

fahad: mt25rr elwgtt!

nayfa: w intt 79'rtk b9faat meen?

fahad: b9faat 7beebk w galbikk w-

nayfa: fheeed!!

fahad: 5ala9 b9faat your fiance

i melteeeed

nayfa: laa wallah?
b3den ana glt mara7 a7akeek ilaa when you give me time to think.

fahad: 3naadk! el7een skrna elmw9'oo3, e3tbreeni a7d ma t3rfeena y3nii mara7 trdeen?

nayfa: ee mara7 ard cause

fahad: you're mine.

nayfa: over confidence sucks, you know?

fahad: uff i miss you.

nayfa: glna someone i don't know
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and that's how it went, we decided to have a walk..
i said that because i wanted to spend more time with him even if my heels weren't comfortable at all.

fahad: nayfaa

nayfa: hmm

fahad: i know you're feeling cold laa t6l3een marra thanya ke4a blel, take my jacket


cutttiiieeee:')

nayfa: meen gal brdana 3la kefk huu

fahad: maa s2ltk ana, gltt "i know"

nayfa: thank you 6yb

we passed near the park that was the closest to our apartment

fahad: t3alii

nayfa: fahad gltt tw9lnii bss 3ad brj3 elbet, 5lga 6al3a a3'yr jww w 5rb kl shy

fahad: affaa, 5rb mnii

nayfa: laa shft leena.

fahad: afhm mn klamk enii mfr7k now

nayfa: FAHAAAD!

fahad: amz77 wallah 5ala9

we stood in silence for a couple of minutes.
how much i miss those times.

fahad: t4kreen when we fought at this exact corner?

nayfa: ...

fahad: it's gonna be ok this time too

nayfa: guess not

fahad: it will.

yallah let me take you home.

he was using his phone:


حقك علي ان كنت زعلان يا بعد عمر وقلب غاليك

بارضيك مهما يكون يافلان حتى ولو راضي باراضيك

قلبي بك مولع وحــيران محتار ما يدري بك اشفيك

ويقول لك انا كان غلـطان ارضى عليه الله يخليك

عليك انا ياشوق ولهــان دايم انا وقلبي في طاريك

جفني يمضي الليل سهران والعين يالغالي تناديك

انت وانا يالزين خــلان واجب تداريني واداريك

ما نختلف لو كان ماكان ولاعاد تجفيني ولا اجفيك

his eyes looking at me made me feel super nervous, it's not the first time.
but it felt different.

nayfa: allah a7bhaa 

fahad: y3nii r6'ena?

nayfa: glt a7bha w bss

fahad: w ana amuut feek muu bs a7bk

nayfa: -sarcastic stare-
bkefk, efhmm ilee tfhma.

his hands fitting mine perfectly made me feel safe.



this years fancies are passing fancies but sighing sighs, holding hands.. these my heart understands.


after a few mins of walking, we reached our door.


hands were still held near, and eyes were still staring clear.

fahad: take care

nayfa: thanks.

fahad: a7bk

his half smile was asxjdbdkj.
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twnii bd5l w 6b3n el miss phone calls wagft lee 3nd elbab.

felwa: thanks, -imitating my voice-

nayfa: klii zgg mu ke4a

felwa: wsh 4al thgl, enshallah 6ul elwgt ke4a

nayfa: ma shftii shy

felwa: 6b3n 6l3tii ilee bglbk?

nayfa: ee

felwa: tfahmtu?

nayfa: i said i need time

felwa: yaal-

nayfa: w b3deeeen felwa y3ni thank you w bla bla bss why did u do this!
kntii tdreen enii mabbee 

felwa: ma tbeen ha?
isktii bss isktii, laa tkabreen, you want him so bad.

nayfa: awreek

felwa: you're most welcome.
not to mention inee tara ma shftkum holding hands..

nayfa: ...

felwa: ee esktii
lhldrjaa fahood mood changer

nayfa: fahad lwsm7tii

felwa: t3alii m3ay fogg

i entered to find a huge flower bouquet.

felwa: here you go 


Have you ever watched a rose as it fades away; the color becomes deeper as the petals dry. That's how my love for you deepens as the days go by.
Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you.
If love were what the rose is,And I were like the leaf, Our love would grow together,In sad or sighing weather.
i'm just so sorry, about everything..
you mean the world to me Nayfa..
remember that promise ring i gave you a long time ago?
keep it aside, cause inside here is a new one, a new page, a new promise..

Fahad.
















































Years from now I can picture us still laughing together, still holding hands, and still completely in love... just like we are now.

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this was a post to make it up to you guys, i hope you enjoyed.
And again, your comments and feedbacks are needed<3

RANDOM- I can't forget it, i won't regret it..

here's a random post i searched about beautiful words that i thought described the last chapter's situation, hope you like it.. 
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How long will I be waiting
To be with you again
I'm gonna tell you that I love you
In the best way that I can
I can't take a day without you here
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear


its too late to pretend
You know me better than I know myself
Don't take my heart and put it on a shelf
Always some one else
The next guy who will make your cold heart melt
I'm gonna give my love to some one else


I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I don't know if I'll get up
And I don't wanna cause a scene
But I'm dying without your love
Begging to hear your voice
Tell me you love me too
'Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you


I'm sorry for breaking all the promises
That I wasn't around to keep
You told me this time is the last time
That I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way


And don't say that you sorry
You're breaking every inch of my heart
I should have known from the start
That it's all just a lie
And don't say that you need me
And don't play these games in my mind
You better get out of my head
'Cause you're wating your time


You left without a single word not even sorry
It might've hurt worse to hear you say
I'm leaving, goodbye
But your smile still makes my heart sing
Another sad song
I can't forget it I won't regret it
Cause I'm still in love with you

CHAPTER 50

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Nayfa: esm3 fahad, ana bs dgait 3shan bgolk km klma. ana ma hmni 6l3t m3 leenah wla 6l3t m3 3'erha wla enk knt tsfahni wla shy kl hatha etrka 3la jmb, elayam elli fatt klha ana ga3da a9ee7 w 3shan meen? 3shank w laish? knt a7sb nfsi 3'l6ana w mz3ltk w knt afkr b kl shy swaita 7ba 7ba.. bs elyoum 3rft ena ana mu mswya shy w ent z3lt l2na jak klam? w mn meen? ma t3rf.. m3laish hatha hu elshy elw7eed elli 3'bni, estw3bt ena mn elbdaya ent ma knt wath8 feeni, knt tdwrli zalla.. kaif tbena nkml swa w ahm shy mfro'9 ykon baina mafe wla ng6a mna enk tkon wath8 bl ensana elli bt9eer zojtk greeb w eni ana akoun wath8a feek hatha ahm shy, bs ektshft ena mn elbdaya ent ma knt wath8 feeni wla ma kan 9dgt kl hal 7ki ya fahad, 9dgu la galu la t'thg b a7d wla 7ta l,ensan elli ygolk ena hu m3k l,abd l2na mafi shy ybga ll abad ya fahad, el7yat tmshi w ana mabi awgf 7yati 3shank. m3 enk akthr ensan a7ba w ent 3arf hal shy w ent dary ena mahma swait ana lessa a7bk bs ana magdr ast7ml zyada ktha.. im sorry fahad, bs let's take a break.. just give me some time to think. im not ending what's between us, i just need some time to think l2ni 3arfa bndm etha tsr3t b 8rari w ent shy ma ytkrr.. bye fahad

Fahad: i will always love you..

Nayfa: Good-bye fahad, for now:") 

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i just wished i could wave all these problems goodbye, instead of keeping that miserable distance.

Despite how hard it was for me to say all this, i just exploded.. 
keeping all this jealousy and confusion for a long time and not knowing the reason, then discovering the one you love is with somebody else and not trusting.. is way too hard.

all this was a reason of how words stormed my insides.


felwa-shocked-: nayfaa, umm sh9ar?

nayfa: i just can't take this anymore!! felwaa elli 5ala9 9dg magdr ast7ml.. kl shy marra yl5b6 madrii wsh aswiii

-droplets of sadness uncleared my vision-

felwa: 6yb galk shy?

nayfa: lww kan muu shak feeni ahwn 3lyy mn ena y9dgg klam leena!
lww ana makana? wallah r7tlaa mn awl yomm w fhmta kl shyy l2anii 9dg a5af a5sra.. w 3arfa inaa musta7eel yswii shy zy ke4a y3nii mara7 a9dg ay kalam bss ms2alat enna y9eer ha4a kella w bkl bruud a39ab y7akeeni aww he simply texts me. magdr.

felwa: 6ybb ma tgdreen lesh!

nayfa: FELWAA! intee shfteeni?? 7seeti blii knt a7sa? laa w ma atw83 tgdreen.. felwa knt kl maa ashufhum at34b.. kntt wdee bss a7ss inaa lee geema 3nda mthl maa huu 3zeez 3laay! knt afkkr w a39rr m5i kl youm gbl ma anam bss adwr zltii, w lesh?
3ashan aru7laa w at2asaf.. knt a7ss bnaag9 bss maa 7set yhma.
ma fkkr 7taa he smiles wlaa ygum yslm, aw atleast a text!

muu ynarfiz?


felwa: yaa bnt stop sobbing maa 9art!

her hugs are lifesavers.


nayfa: leshh maa nkml sh'hr bduun maa shy y5rb benaa?
i love him but i can't deal with thaat. muu mst3da ag9'ee wgtii ke4a..


felwa: things are gonna work out laa tfkreen..

nayfa: ufff

felwa: 5ala9 muu kwaiss ilee jalsa tsweena bnfsk!
how about going to the cinema?

nayfa: hmm.. mdrii malii nafss

felwa: gumee bsr3a, btru7een 3'a9b

nayfa:   i quickly ran to my room and grabbed the comfiest outfit with the lightest makeup ever!

i needed something to change my mood.
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nayfa: yallah ma 5l9tii

felwa: trak btn9fgen, 9arlk two weeks 3laa sweatpants!
ilbsee shy 7luu ma 9art your wardrobe is full!

nayfa: malii 5lg, it's just a movie in the end

felwa: glt lk ilbsee shy 7lu.

nayfa: ya alllaaah, fstan 3ashank bss

felwa: ya5ii a pair of pants and a cute top ahwwn mn ke4a

i changed to this:

*the image is at the start of this page, i couldn't bring it down*
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nayfa: 3ajbk ke4a?

felwa: hmm.. acceptable

nayfa: you're jus-

felwa: amz77, gamaar 

we headed to the cinema, for the first time in two weeks, it felt like i'm pretty happy again.

felwa: i'll take the tickets, you go grab some popcorn

nayfa: 6ybb

i waited in line, heels were a mistake.

now i dropped my water bottle, good nayfa just good.
and guess who was infront of me?
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yes, leena.

yarabii 9brnii.


leena: ya allah, ohhh nayfa!

nayfa: yarab 9brk.

leena: wshd3wa maa glt shyy yumma mnk dlaa3, ilaa jaya m3 meen.

nayfa: i'd like to have two small caramel popcorns and one iced tea please.

leena: bz3mna ma nsm3

nayfa: la asm3 bss ma ard 3laa ashkalk.

guy: lwen ha4ii hyy?

leena: uff ee..

guy: wallah zeen tswii feek tskeet mu7taram

leena: nayfa

nayfa: 5eer

leena: a3rfk 3laa my cousin, sultan

nayfa: eee muu ana nag9nii nas zykk.

sultan: a77, gwya knha
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nayfa: ya allaah ya fahdah a7shaa stalker kl ma 6l3t a3'yrr jww 6l3t elmneeb gayla

felwa: mn 4ee? lwaynn?

nayfa: w fee 3'erha?
laa w gal esh gal a3rfk 3la sultan mn cousin, zgaga.

felwa: 6nsheeha bss, mr6'

i enjoyed my time, it was peaceful not until we got out.



nayfa: wen nawya twdeena el7een?

felwa: intee amree bss 3yuni lk

nayfa: nst7ii taraa

felwa: e9brii i'll have a phone call w brj3 laa t6wleen

leena and sultan were at the corner, giving me their backs.. i can tell they planned something.


the silence was killed when i felt weight on my shoulders, i turned around to see him.



my other half..
his eyes sparked.
i miss them.


fahad: please, just this..
why didn't you answer!

nayfa: you didn't call me recently

fahad: i did, shufee my recent calls

nayfa: -i pressed it accidentally-

it wass accepted.

we both stared at other in confusion.

i took the phone and waited for a voice that would explain it all..

sultan, lesh rdet i switched numbers. 

i heard leena say, was that from the phone?i turned around to find her there.


i now know the trick did you?















explanation:
when i first met leena, she asked me for my mobile to call someone..
she used it to change fahad's number to hers, and my number in fahad's mobile to her number..

this way she could control what we say, so all that wasn't fahad!
now i know why i didn't bother to read fahad's texts right away, it was an unknown number due to the changes.

how did i miss that?
oh god.








i stared back at fahad, with my tongue feeling heavy.. not even a word.
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This was it for the chapter! hope you enjoyed.. it wasn't long enough but i promise i'll post this weekend<3

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